why I do what I do

I was actually thinking why i do what i do.. and then did some research on internet, as well as heard some spiritual discourses and i came up with the following chain which leads to action.

It all starts with our thoughts whatever we think create emotions in us. emotions are nothing but feeling or reaction towards someone or something. and it usually involves EGO. feelings are normally body sensations that we feel, various emotions conclude to our feelings. what we talk, is basically derives from our thoughts, emotions and feelings and finally accordingly we act.

Hence once we understand this chain, we will be able to manipulate things that we do or things that we say or things that we feel or things that we think about.

believe me its not impossible to train our mind. It may be difficult, but once we start training it, it starts obeying us as a good pet. Its just that we need to be firm with it. Meditation and exercise can help us in training our mind.

I know, I also don't have a very obedient mind. I am also on this journey to help myself, and I want all of you too to help yourself.

Life in the old age home

Today I went to the old age home along with my family. Our family generally go to the old age home occasionally to distributed some eatables, and spend time with them. We met them, sang few devotional songs and spend some time, tried spreading happiness in their lives. Everything looked good. All the members of the old age home, seemed happy. But somehow, I know they are not happy at the core of their heart.  The pain, hurt, depression of these old people staying in that old age home rub over me, every time i visit them.

Every time we go there life seems less glamorous to me. If I am going to be dependent on people like this during the later years of my life, then i don't want to live up till that time. Can I take my own life? No! I will never take my own life. Its completely against my principles as of now.

old age home members with the eatables